soo
it seems i am stoned
however
i have not been exposed to pot lately
so it is thus impossible?
I SAY NAY!!!!!!!!!!!
god said so
he appeared to me in my mind just a few sentences ago, in the form of a tired and jaded bunny rabbit and said. " thou art stoned, but not stoned, and this happening is because of my WRATH!!!! the wrath of the heathens and heretics, and thats cuz you doodle in church and draw and all that junk and clap off beat and do little dances and when it comes time to shake peoples hands during the peace you pretend your hand is a dead fish and thus provide a horrible limp handshake that all loathe. so for this reason, i have not let you sleep well, or get to sleep even if you want to, and so now you are so sleep deprived you feel like you are stoned. and what is worse, THOU SHALT APPEAR STONED AS WELL!!!!! amen.
so kiddies, beware of tired and jaded bunny rabbits appearing in your mind saying they are god, cuz they just might explain things to you and you will NOT be happy with the explanations they give you.
now.
i have to go do art
that i will prolly not get around to posting
however, before the art of rapture, nirvana, and all things orgasmic, i have to do my stupid pre-cal homework. and hate the fact that im young, and wish that i was in my twenties, and that i didnt have to endure the shit that im going through now, like being surrounded by lameasses, and bunny rabbits, and stupid rambling journal entries, and people who hate me, and girls who are better than me, and better than i ever will be, and who are classified as hot when all i can ever get is 'cute" or "pretty" but never hot. NEVER. i think ive gotten that title once or twice? and you know whats worse, in some aspects? when you see the guy you want so badly, and hes with another girl, and you get the horrible feeling that they are gonna FUCK ALL NIGHT LONG AND HAVE BEEN FOR QUITE SOME TIME OR WILL AT LEAST KEEP IT UP FOR WEEKS ON END. and then you realize you cant have him and never will be able to, and all you'll be able to do is be his friend, and wish and hope that maybe he sees you in a different light someday.
but he prolly wont
shit.
math and art time
i hate life sometimes
i wonder how im gonna end up when im older
LYDIA THE RAMBLER AND TWISTED SANE GIRL OF CHAOS AND THE KINGDOM OF INSNAITY< OF WHICH SHE IS THE RULER. ha.